Writing a blog after a long time….lot of things on my mind and just putting it in here…don’t even know if it is going to make any sense….
This is a topic which sis and I discussed very often… “what is our passion? What do we like the most? What do we want to do the most?”…. we haven’t found an answer yet..
This was again our topic when we were travelling from Chennai to Bangalore in shatabdhi (which by the way was an awesome train…a little about it at
http://www.allyouwannaknow.net/aroundtheworld/2010/06/08/chennai-in-may-2010/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+vidhya%2Ftravel+%28Around+the+World%29 )
I think many a times that my job is boring….or that not really what I want to do. I am just doing it because it is what I have. But when I really sit and think and ask myself…if I had all the money in the world and all the time…what is it that I want to do? Given an ideal situation that nothing restricts me…..
The answer is…. I DON’T KNOW….
This is a sad situation….for many reasons….
When one does not have a passion, most of the time there is lack of hobbies. The focus is always on what work is there currently. If there is nothing to do any day… or if there is no pressing need to finish stuff…and if there is a lot of time….then life gets boring because one does not know what to do.
I know that hobby in not equal to passion. But I have noticed most of times that hobbies are the product of passion.
I have a friend….she is and was very artistic…really talented. We attended all embroidery, flower making, pottery etc etc classes together…She always had the perfectionist touch to what she did. She ended up doing things in a very professional way. The best was that she continued doing all that stuff even after the course was over. She designed some duppattas….she embroidered lot of stuff. I never had the patience.
She then went on to learn mehendi applying…the design stuff. She was just too good at it. And what was amazing was that she had a much more tiring job than i. she was an architect who stood in front of the drawing table for hours the whole day….same was the case when she was in college too…she had an additional year compared to my curriculum. Yet she managed to keep up her mehendi applying for many people (never charged a single pie from anyone….just hobby).
What is more amazing is….she was married….in a joint family with many people…she being the only working woman….cooks…cleans…goes to work…and after all that she says…” it was Id….so I put mehendi”…not just for herself….for other women at home too!!!
If I was her… I would be saying…”Mehendi…what the hell is that…after all this work I did rather not fulfill that formality for the festival”
Now that I call passion…when one is passionate…one somehow finds the energy and time and interest to do stuff. But if you are not passionate….there is always an excuse why you cannot do something…there is no time…or everyday is so tiring….or I just don’t have the right stuff…or something….there is no end to the list of excuses.
Now why am I talking so much about passion….???
I believe that everyone must have some hobbies. The main reason that I see is….today I have a job and I have a lot of stuff to do. So I am busy. Some years down the lane… I may not have so much of stuff… I might have kids who are all grown up and looking into their own lives. If I do not have my own interests and hobbies… I will be bored. I will not know what to do. Then I will interfere unnecessarily disturbing other people’s lives…..like my children’s. my kids would be my only focus and not sure if they would like it. Life is changing a lot….as years pass….one must make life interesting for oneself is what I believe in.
Passion cannot be developed…it just happens. But hobbies can be developed. One can read books, so some painting (which I attempted recently and gave up for my life…not my cup of tea)…but when there is lack of passion…the interest and patience does not last long.
I will surely do 2 things…. Keep trying to find my passion….also in the meanwhile learn a lot of things (may be painting itself…who knows) so that someday when I am bored…atleast I will have a lot of options to choose from to do something….
Its like how people save money for later in life…. I am saving up some knowledge….I should stop writing now…I am blabbering!!
